Today my Mom sent me an e-mail with a devotional attached to it about what taking a leap of faith looks like, and this concept has never felt more present than now. God alone has opened up doors and opportunities for me to move to L.A. to pursue a career in the entertainment industry. I absolutely love stories, and I feel so blessed to be able to move to the city where many famous stories are born! Of course I have dreams and goals for what I hope to achieve in these next years of my life, but I'm amazed at how hard it is to make the initial leap.
I'm experiencing so many mixed emotions as this Feb. 7th date approaches. One moment I'll be so giddy with excitement, and then the next tearing up because of all I leave behind. Then, I feel so blessed because I have amazing family and friends to miss and cry about leaving. Some people tell me that I have nothing but money to loose by trying and moving to L.A...but my heart thinks otherwise. Here, I'm surrounded by love, comfort, and really the life that many currently living in L.A. wish they had. I have a great relationship with my family and friends, and of course life is never perfect, but here life feels pretty close to it.
So what does it mean to take a leap of faith? I'm not running from my past, or pursing L.A. to find myself. I'm finding that a leap of faith is jumping off the ledge of all that you love and of all that is certain into a place where only God is calling and only he can catch you. I see his fingerprints all over this move...this leap...but the uncertainties are completely overwhelming!! It's actually a communication theory (see that college degree paying off! lol) the more uncertainty, then greater the fear, but here's my point in sharing this with those to you who are reading...With Christ, there's no uncertainty because his love is perfect. Perfect love is certain, perfect love casts out all fear, and perfect love is something only God alone possesses. No friend, family member, or relationship could ever amount to the love that God has for each human being, which means that when he calls we take that leap with the upmost confidence that the God of perfect love with catch, hold, sustain, and bring peace in every uncertain life circumstance. In 2007 I went to NYC in St. Louis and a band sang these words "I want to hold the hand that holds the world," and that's my prayer as I move because when I'm holding that hand I know that I may not get a happy ending here on Earth, but I'm directly connected to the joy of God's everlasting Kingdom.
Deep? Yes, but I challenge you to leap everyday with a move of BELIEF and not of hope. Hope is stagnant, while belief requires action, and today is the day we're given to move in the direction God is calling. Am I going to cry my eyes out as I say goodbye to all that I know to be certain and comfortable? YES! But do I need to fear the doubts that float all over what I don't know right now...NO! Because I know with all of me that this move draws me closer to God's perfect love where everything is certain.
Blessings to you as you go for it too! :)
Alisha Stevens
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